Chapter 15 : Jailed
Yamato
I'm going to go to jail aren't I? Locked up forever in a dark,
damp, cage. Damn. My head spun. I tried to collect my thoughts.
Thoughts. My thoughts have been getting weirder and weirder,
stupider and stupider, violenter and violenter. That's not even a
word. I am going crazy, they're all right, I am insane. What
happened today that led to this? What shit-ass, fucked up move
did I make? I thought back...
~
I leapt at the doctor, landing on top of her, she struggled and
tired to turn over. I didn't let her. I was blinded with anger. I
punched her repeatedly, my fists clenched tightly. Then I got
off, grabbed a chair and threw it at her. She didn't really
resist much. Stupid. I grew fusterated at her unresponsiveness.
Why didn't she react? She just sat there on the ground staring at
me. Telling me to calm down. Shouldn't she be running around
screaming?
That fact bothered me and I stopped attacking her. I was still
angry. I threw a plant out the window. I could hear people
coming. I was blinded with anger, but hadn't completely lost my
mind yet. I jumped out the window and hurried away. I dashed down
the street, a blur, no one tried to follow. I rushed past a few
annoyed people, who had to surve quickly to avoid a collision
with me.
I ran, and ran, and ran, until my heart was beating so fast I was
sure it would explode. My anger had died down a bit by then, but
I remembered my fury. I slowed as I neared my apartment. My dad
wouldn't be home yet, maybe I could run away. That would be such
an easy solution to it all. Maybe. I walked slowly up the many
flights of stairs. If I'm going to run away, I should take money.
I reached my apartment building.
I went inside, my hair was still damp with sweat. The house was
as I left it. Empty. Untouched. What should I do? What should I
do? My parents were surely going to be the first ones contacted
about the psychiatrist bitch...I have to run away. They're surely
convinced I'm insane now. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Here's another
time when anger has blinded you, fool. I cursed myself. What
could I take with me?
Not this stupid school uniform for sure. I almost laughed. Lets
decide how I should look before I run away. I changed into my
favorite outfit, green sleeveless and jeans. I took a leather
black jacket along as well. It's October, it'd be getting cold. I
then rummaged the small apartment for money and shoved it all in
the jacket. I couldn't really take much with me. In the back of
my head I thought it weird that my thoughts could go from
irrational rage to reasonable urgancy. I shrugged it off and
grabbed my harmonica.
I left the apartment. No one could tell I had been there. No one
would notice a thing. I went back down the flight of stairs,
reflecting. What am I doing? Running away. Why? I thought about
it. They all think I'm insane. Why? I thought some more. I...what
had I done to make them think so...? I...I killed rats. I was
angry. I still have to find Takeru's murderer. They'd get in my
way. Boom. There was my reason. I smiled a little. At least my
dying conscience would shut up for a while now.
It was getting dark outside. Good. Then I realized something. If
I was going to avenge TK. I needed my weapon back. I had asked
Taichi to keep it for me. Knowing him, he probably shoved it
under his bed or something. I detoured myself towards the
Kamiya's. As I neared their residence, I could see that something
I was definately up. Hikari was on the front steps of the
apartment. She looked fidgety and nervous. She must know, I
thought. If she knows then Taichi knows. And if I know Tai, he'll
be his dumbass self and arrange a search. Stupid. You'll never
find me.
How to get in? There must be more than one way into that
apartment. Damn, where was Gabumon when I need him? I blinked. I
hadn't thought about him in a while. It had been a long time.
Years. Had I forgotten him? No, I can't. He was one of the
few...creatures in the world...that had truely cared for him. My
parents were a joke. My friends...well...I rarely saw them
anymore anyway. I shook it off. Not the time to miss Gabumon.
I spotted a side entrance. Funny I didn't notice it before. I
crept quietly in the shadows, careful, Kari could not see me. If
she did, I was busted. I slowly managed into the side entrance. I
made sure no one was around, then ran 3 flights to the Kamiya's
floor. I stepped cautiously into the hall, I spotted the backside
of Tai retreating down the main stairs. Good. I made my way to
the door of his apartment. Unlocked. Pefect.
I laughed silently about the secuirty. I quickly scurried into
Tai's room, I had only been here a few times before, but it was
just as I pictured it. Messy. Clothes thrown everywhere, a
soccerball in the corner, shin guards, etc. A pile of books lay
on the bed with a backpack. I checked under the bed, and spotted
it immediately. Taichi, can't I even trust you to hide a weapon
from myself? A voice in my head asked bitterly. Hell, whatever, I
got the knife.
The blade was smooth and cold. The handle was thin and hard. I
vaguely remember where this knife had come from. It was suppose
to be a displace knife. But it worked just as well for other
purposes. Dad had bought it for me at a Flea Market a long time
ago, before he had been unreasonally busy. The blade was embedded
in a sphere, the sphere was black marble. The hilt of the tool
ended in another sphere. This sphere was a tad smaller than the
first and was black as well. On this sphere, in white marble, was
a demented looking smiley face.
I tucked the knife into my jacket safely then hurried out of the
room. I snuck out of the apartment without trouble and made it
back down the stairs. I poked my head outside slowly. I could
hear the voices of my friends. I turned my head and listened.
"Where should we look first?" Sora's voice quivered, it
was now pretty cold outside. Wind ripped at my face. Wherever you
look you don't find me, Sora, I'm right behind you. That's the
last place you'd look. The group moved along the street, I
slinked silently in the shadows behind them. Thank the darkness.
"If I were Matt, where would I be?" Tai muttered. I
almost laughed. I knew Taichi well, too bad he couldn't say the
same for me. He would never find me. "Last time he ran
off....he went to the not-so-good neighborhoods..."
Koushirou said. My amusement vanished. "Can't w-we s-search
tomorrow? It's-s-s'cold..." Mimi chattered. My mood
darkened. Mimi didn't give a shit did she? She just wanted to be
home in her pink robe and bunny slippers, to be warm. She didn't
care about me. She was only here because Tai called her here. I
felt angered. Don't be...the voice told me, I wanted to kick the
damn voice's ass.
"Mimi! Don't you care at all about what's happening to
Yamato?" Sora asked in surprise. Do you really care Sora? Or
is it just an act? Perhaps you are all acting. You're too
pessimistic, Matt, the voice said. "S-Sure I d-do, it's
j-just so cold!" was Mimi's reply. So your saying you care
more about the temperature than me huh? Bitch. I clenched my
teeth, then inhaled deeply, trying to keep myself from screaming
at her.
"I thought I heard something." Hikari said suddenly. I
froze. I didn't breathe. I didn't move. I cannot be caught. I
cannot be caught. Damnit. "You're hearing things,
Kari..." I heard Izzy say. There was no reply from Taichi's
sister. Thinking of Hikari angered me more. It reminded me of
Takeru. My brother had been crazy for her. It was kind of sad.
But he's not here for me to tease. There was a short silence as
we continued to walk. Sad. They're searching skills.
"Maybe we should split up." Izzy suggested after a
while. "What?" Mimi squeeked immediately. "I don't
know guys...what if someone finds Yamato...and he //really//
isn't acting like himself...." Tai wondered. I snarled
silently. I'm insane aren't I? Bastard. You're supposed to be my
friend. You sent me to the psychiatrists. You agreed to it, the
voice said. Shut up! I snapped at myself. My head hurt.
"What would we do if we found Matt?" Sora asked, her
voice was hoarse and scratchy. "I don't know...I think he's
beyond talking to..." Tai answered. I was enraged. It took
every ounce of sense I had left in me to keep my cover. Beyond
talking to!? You're supposed to be my friends!! Damnit, I
realized I was alone. No one thought I was sane anymore. I had no
one.
"This is stupid" Joe said suddenly. How very true. The
group stopped and looked at him. I crouched low, behind a bush.
"I mean, we're not going to find him if we stay like this.
But we're afraid about what would happen if we found him and were
alone. What's the point then?" Joe explained. Leave it to
Jyou to be reasonable. "We have to do something!!" Tai
exclaimed. "I wanna go home..." Mimi whimpered.
Fraidycat bitch. I want to kill you. Watch as you scream when
I...
"We have to try guys..." Izzy muttered quietly. Kari's
eyes kept darting around. I was afraid I'd get caught.
"Doing something pointless is worse than doing
nothing!" Joe said. "What do you suggest we do
then?!" Taichi shouted. "I don't know, but not this!
This is stupid!" the blue-haired boy shouted back. The two
glared at each other. Sparks of hate flew. Oooooo...I laughed
sinisterly to myself. I glared at Mimi, she was cowering and
whimpering. Damn I hate her.
"Guys stop it! We're not getting anywhere!" Sora yelled
at Joe and Tai. "Keep out of this Sora!" Joe snapped.
Tai clenched his fists and swung, "Why are you so selfish,
Joe!? Matt needs our help!" Another fight. Flashbacks from
the Digiworld came to me. I ignored them. "Why can't you be
resonable, Tai!? This isn't getting us anywhere! Admit it and
stop wasting our time!!" Joe snarled. "Tai stop
it!" Kari cried out. "Joe! Calm down...!!" Izzy
urgently requests. I shook my head, you can't stop a fight with
Tai, people. I know from personal experience.
Taichi holds back a punch, anger written all over his face.
"UG! Why can't I go home?! I don't want to look for Yamato!
Why can't he just face the facts!? Takeru's DEAD! He can't bring
him back!" Mimi explodes. This caught me totally off guard.
Surprise was overrun quickly by fury. Maybe I can't bring him
back, but I CAN avenge my brother. You wouldn't know how it feels
you little bitch. You would never know how it feels. I'm going to
kill you Mimi, I'm going to kill you!!!
"We keep looking." Tai snarled through clenched teeth.
"You may have been the leader back then, but you're not
anymore. You can't tell us what to do!" Ooooo...Joe, you
idiot. You pushed the wrong button. "You WILL listen to me,
Kido!! You WILL listen!" Tai screamed, his face was boiling,
he was sweating. I could tell, even in the dark. "You can't
make me!!" Joe shouted lamely and thrusted his hands forward
and knocked Taichi into the street.
I had never known Joe to be violent, but it didn't really shock
me. I stayed silent and watched, trying to tame my anger against
Mimi. I spotted headlights coming our way. "Car!!" Kari
screeched. The light poured onto Tai, who looked shocked, the
horn blared. "Tai!" Izzy shouted. Sora dived into the
street and knocked the bruinette out of the road. She kept
rolling and made it out of the way of the car. They were just
lucky.
Everyone rushed to the otherside of the street. I took my chance.
Mimi, being herself, didn't want to ruin her clothing my running.
She was the last one left, I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her
into the bushes. She struggled and tried to scream, but clamped
her mouth shut. I dragged her away. I was going to kill her. My
rage was unimaginable. She had insulted me, my brother. I
couldn't stand it. She probably thought I was insane too. I was
going to kill her. I never got my chance.
~
I sat in the back of the police car, thinking. How did they find
me. Who the hell called the police? I had been so close. Who had
ratted on me? I felt anger overpower me again. I was so close.
Now what was going to happen to me? I was going to jail. How
long? What was going to happen?
What was I going to do? I still had to avenge the killer. That
was my only concern now. I didn't care about my own life. I
wasn't going to see TK again ever. If I go to jail, I don't care.
I just want to kill the murderer who had taken away my life. My
life no longer mattered, I had lost everything I held dear.
Everyone thought I was crazy and I no longer had my brother. Damn
you. And when I die, I still won't find Takeru. For surely I was
going to hell. And Takeru is in heaven with the angels.
The car came to a stop. The door opened and I was pulled out
roughly. I didn't struggle. What was the point? I couldn't escape
this now. But I could later. I would. I had to. I can't let TK
down. I //would// avenge him! I would. The dragged me into a
small jailhouse. It was probably only a temperary one. It only
had a few cells. And only one was occupied. The cell contained a
teen a bit older than me. Maybe 17 or 18 years old. He had light
brown hair and a nasty grin. His clothes were ragged and dirty.
They threw me in the cell next to his. They had taken my knife
from me, I had nothing with me now, except a handful of money and
my harmonica. I sat down in the corner of my cell, as far as I
could from my jailmate. The police had left without a word. What
would happen to me now? I glared angrilly at the floor. What can
I do? "Hey." the voice startled me a little, I looked
up. It was the other jailbird. I glared at him, not replying.
"Aren't you Ishida Yamato? The Digidestined?" he asked.
I blinked.
© Kiriska